ok so i had my birthday...yay 20 ok ok so i dont care but it was so much fun yesterday. my parents came up with helen and took me out to lunch and it was good to see them again. then hannah had the rest of the day planned out for me and i guess all her plans failed but i didnt notice or care. i had a great day with her. and now im avoiding the studying im so screwed this whole year has been an academic waste and school has killed me. ive had so much fun but at what cost this semester i blew off all my classes and i feel like im waisting my time here but theres nowhere id rather be. this is home but i feel lost here and stuck in this endless cycle of academics. whatever ill get there...eventually. anyway so i was feeling like shit today not shure why well cuz of all that stuff up there and i get online and check my mail and there is two pages of facebook happy birthdays for me people i wouldnt have expected to care everyone it was great i really do have some great friends and i need to stop ignoring them. this all sounds like something ive heard before from my older friends maybe everyone goes through this either way im gonna reinvent myself this summer and come back strong in the fall i mean it im gonna graduate on time and get a real job its time to grow up! but its nice outside and im gonna go play cuz ive got a few weeks before summer stay cool ian out