so i heard the news

congratulations

Everyone wants something from me... does no one understand. Things don't go well on the trip its my relationships that get dropped. It has always been this way, its not about you.

Do you remember the snow?

....I do

even if im disconnected i can still be happy 

and i am 

So as it turns out no one cares

Im not who I thought I was 

and neither is she 

SO its been a while lots of stuff has happened but now that its over it doesnt seem important. isnt it weird what we find important and when we find it so. yeah so anyway
i sent chris his apple juice i really hope customs doest open it cuz its whisky and im not sure that you are allowed to send alcohol in the mail and i know he cant receive it SO yeah im a little worried about it
i got my new climbing shoes they are awesome and i might get to go on geojourney as staff! i talked to joe and he actually considered it right away and told me to come back and talk to him. so i did and he and nikki said that they would love to have me on the trip! how awesome would that be. i wont know for sure until the end of feb but they said that basically as long as a geology grad student dosent want to go as a cook then i will be head cook and i will have an assistant. how sweet would that be. im a little worried because its a lot of resposibility and i tend to shy away from responsibilty but joe would definitely help me realize all expectations he had of me. hes really good at motivating me. and maybe if i prove to myself that i can handle the responsibility then i wont fear it any longer.
anyway i dont know what i want to do about school anymore but i suppose it will figure its self out
i feel as tho i am wasting my parents money on worthless classes when there is a lot i need to learn but cant learn here in ohio
i need my wilderness first responder, ropes certification, and some damn experience in the field. id like to get wilderness emt, and deep water rescue for scuba but that will have to wait i guess. wilderness emt takes a long time to get the class is like a semester long. we will find out if ill be leaving the country this summer next weekend but well discuss that when it happens.

kay thats enough for now
later yall

one year later and i still love this girl!